Not Doing A Good Job:

So I am not doing a very good job keeping up with this. But I have been a little busy with different things. Here is a list of things that have kept me busy.
Work: after 8 years at the YMCA I decided to move on and get a new job. I now work at Milestones daycare center and love my job.
School: After many years of going to school I am excited to say that I am still working on my degree. But I will walk on May 15, 2014 and then I will get my degree a few months after that. I have been going to school since 2007.
Family: My family also has been keeping me very busy. With Ken and I working 40 hours a week we have been very busy. Ashley is doing good in school she is getting ready to be a big Freshman next year. I as her mother am not ready for this. I hope and pray God has the best in store for her. I love her very much and pray for her everyday.
I am hoping to be able to do more on this as the summer comes upon us. I know that I am very excited for summer and some much needed time outside. I am hoping to get Ashley outside a lot this summer and much needed time to spend with my family.

So I will try to keep up now. Please pray for me that I can do this.

I forgot to do day 5,6,7 on here so here is day 8.

Day 8:
I am thankful for Kens family for welcoming us into the family. His family has welcomed us into the family and it is very cool. I am very thankful that they are willing to let us be a part of the family. I am also thankful for his sister Jenelle for taking Ashley so Ken and I can spend sometime with friends.

Day 4:
I am thankful for all of my sister's that have always been there for me. I want to thank my sisters right now for everything. Lori Bergy Sarah VanRegenmorterShari Harris and Claudia Turkson-Ocran. I love all of you and pray for you daily.

I am going to do what I am thankful for. I am going to try to keep up. It has been kinda of crazy with school and work. So here we go. 1) I am thankful for my Lord Jesus Christ who has taught me so much. 2) I am thankful for my wonderful husband who has been there in the good times and bad. He has brought me through so much. 3) I am thankful for family that is always there when you need them.

Something I wrote:

4-25-13
I went back to work today. It was kinda of hard. Everyone was saying I am sorry for your loss. I know everyone cares. But I have to deal with losing you in my own way. I am sad that you are no longer with us. It is really hard not to touch my belly. I will forever miss you. You will be in our hearts always.
Love Mom

4-26-13
Everyday gets better for me. I will always think about you. Also I will always remember you on Nov. 13 that is the day I would have giving birth to you. I know I write a lot but it is my only way to get over losing you.
Love Mom

5-9-13
It was 3 weeks yesterday 5-8-13 we found we would never meet you. We would never get to hold our little bundle of joy ever. We were so happy when we found out we were pregnant and then 10 weeks later you where gone. I never got to know if you had eyes of brown or blue. Never knew what color you would have. We also never got to see how perfect you were. We all miss you so much. Your big sister miss you also.
Love Mom, Dad and Big sister.

It was one month ago today 5-16-13 we found out we were pregnant for with our beloved baby. I waited for the day to see your beloved face. We grew to love you even though we never meet you. Your Dad was so excited to know that we were going to have a baby. Your Dad was so sad when we found out we would never meet you. I can't wait until I get to heaven to see your face. You are now in a better place and whatever reason we didn't get to know you. Can you live forever in heaven with the Lord. You will one day meet all of us.
Love Mom, Dad, and Big sister

July 8, 2013
In 9 day's it will be 3 months we found out we would never meet you. We found out on April 16, 2013 that we would never meet our bundle of joy. We never knew if were a boy or girl. We would never see if you had eyes of brown or blue. We would never get to hold you in our arms. We were very upset when we found out we would never meet you for the first time. God had a plan why he took you from us. I was so sad I cried everyday and every night. The only person that could comfort me was your Dad. I prayed everyday to God and asked him why he took you from us. I don't always show my emotions that good. It was very hard at first but he showed me that he is always there. Today I would have 5 months pregnant. So your due date would have been only 4 months away.  I know God has a plan for us to have another child. So I will remember the 10 short weeks I did carry you.
Love Mom

I know this is a lot to read but I hope you are enjoying every time you read my blog. I know it is helping deal with losing my baby.

Something I wrote:

I wrote these when I found out I had a miscarriage. I was devastated when this happened that I didn't know what to do. So I started writing things down.

This one was wrote on 4-16-13
We were so excited when we found out I was pregnant. I went to the doctor and I told your dad. He didn't know what to say. I was in shock that I was pregnant. We told family and friends. We never found out if you were a boy or girl. We had names picked out for both. I remember picking out names on the computer with your dad. We were going to find out if you were a boy or girl. I carried you for 10 short weeks touching my belly in hopes to feel you kick. You had a big sister that loves you also. I don't know why God took you from us. We will always know your due date. You were supposed to be due on November 13, 2013. So that we will always remember.
Love Mom

One week ago
It was yesterday 4-23-13 that we found out we would never meet you. God has a plan for us. I pray everyday now for you. Even thou I will never know why God took you from us. We will one day meet you. Your big sister knew that I was pregnant and was very excited. We will also tell your little brother or sister that we lost a child before you were born. We miss you so much even though I only carried you for 10 short weeks.
Love Mom.

4-24-13
Today has been hard for me I cried a little today. I will never forget you ever. I started to love you even though it was only 10 weeks it felt like forever. I grew to love you from the day I found out I was pregnant. I will always remember you.
Love Mom

There is more to come but I thought this would be a good start.

I am starting this blog as an encouragement for people to live in freedom everyday. I have been going through a life group with my husband called Living In Freedom Everyday. So therefore I thought maybe I could encourage anyone who reads this to know that you can have freedom everyday in God also.