Something I wrote:

4-25-13
I went back to work today. It was kinda of hard. Everyone was saying I am sorry for your loss. I know everyone cares. But I have to deal with losing you in my own way. I am sad that you are no longer with us. It is really hard not to touch my belly. I will forever miss you. You will be in our hearts always.
Love Mom

4-26-13
Everyday gets better for me. I will always think about you. Also I will always remember you on Nov. 13 that is the day I would have giving birth to you. I know I write a lot but it is my only way to get over losing you.
Love Mom

5-9-13
It was 3 weeks yesterday 5-8-13 we found we would never meet you. We would never get to hold our little bundle of joy ever. We were so happy when we found out we were pregnant and then 10 weeks later you where gone. I never got to know if you had eyes of brown or blue. Never knew what color you would have. We also never got to see how perfect you were. We all miss you so much. Your big sister miss you also.
Love Mom, Dad and Big sister.

It was one month ago today 5-16-13 we found out we were pregnant for with our beloved baby. I waited for the day to see your beloved face. We grew to love you even though we never meet you. Your Dad was so excited to know that we were going to have a baby. Your Dad was so sad when we found out we would never meet you. I can't wait until I get to heaven to see your face. You are now in a better place and whatever reason we didn't get to know you. Can you live forever in heaven with the Lord. You will one day meet all of us.
Love Mom, Dad, and Big sister

July 8, 2013
In 9 day's it will be 3 months we found out we would never meet you. We found out on April 16, 2013 that we would never meet our bundle of joy. We never knew if were a boy or girl. We would never see if you had eyes of brown or blue. We would never get to hold you in our arms. We were very upset when we found out we would never meet you for the first time. God had a plan why he took you from us. I was so sad I cried everyday and every night. The only person that could comfort me was your Dad. I prayed everyday to God and asked him why he took you from us. I don't always show my emotions that good. It was very hard at first but he showed me that he is always there. Today I would have 5 months pregnant. So your due date would have been only 4 months away.  I know God has a plan for us to have another child. So I will remember the 10 short weeks I did carry you.
Love Mom

I know this is a lot to read but I hope you are enjoying every time you read my blog. I know it is helping deal with losing my baby.